Seasons In The Sun

Its funny (not sure if funny is the right word, but it’ll do for want of a better word), how the smallest of things can bring back a rush of memories. How when you think the hurt is gone it’ll all come back. Its like it all happened just yesterday and it hurts just so much.

A friend messaged yesterday to say why no updates on your blog so thought would just add a few lines so that its not too much of a gap between two updates ;-)

Last night while surfing through channels on TV I chanced upon SeaBiscuit. Its a movie about a horse. Though would watch for sometime and then go to sleep but landed up watching it right to the end. It brought back so many memories. The story was about SeaBiscuit a horse, and how he changed peoples lives. How even though he is small and unlikely to win, he wins. It wasn’t really the storyline but everything else in the movie. The people, the horses, the places.

Just feeling so low today. Writing helps me with feeling better so thought would just write. Most of what will follow will not make sense. Wonder if its even worth reading.

Those times we’ve spent together
Those thoughts we’ve shared
Those days when your hand’s touch
made me feel cared for.
Those moments when your
just being there beside me
protected me from all harm.
Those times when you’d helped me
stand up when I fell
cleaned my bruised knees,
Encouraged me to try again
saying you’ll always be there,
You wiped my tears and
held me warm and tight.
Made me so dependent on you
that now, its so difficult to
go through each day without you
Why did you leave?
Why did you go?
And if you had to go
Why did you touch my life?
Why did you affect me so much?
Why did you go when I needed you the most?
You know, I really miss YOU.

We’ve walked together for many a mile,
Agreed they were not full of smiles,
But you stood by me through it all,
Picked me up after each fall.

I dreamed I had an interview with God.

I love you so much My Beloved
But you may never know
For you are near me
And yet so far
You are here beside me
But between us lie the seven seas
And I wonder if I,
If I will ever reach you
Will I be able to build a bridge
Oh so long, so fast
Will you be there when I,
When I reach the other end
But where ever you may go
Listen well so you may know
There may be seven seas between us
But there is the same,
The same starry blanket up above.